{"id":107285,"date":"2021-03-29T16:55:21","date_gmt":"2021-03-29T20:55:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/?p=107285"},"modified":"2021-03-29T16:00:39","modified_gmt":"2021-03-29T20:00:39","slug":"vorbim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/2021\/03\/29\/vorbim\/","title":{"rendered":"Vorbim, dac\u0103 e"},"content":{"rendered":"

N-o s\u0103 mai fie la fel. Tare mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 m\u0103 contrazic\u0103 cineva \u00eentr-o zi, ar\u0103t\u00eendu-mi cum totul s-a \u00eentors la normal. Dar omenirea pare s-o fi luat \u00eentr-o direc\u021bie clar\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 posibilitatea de a pune fr\u00een\u0103. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Lumea pare s\u0103 fi ales ascunzi\u0219ul. C\u0103 ni\u0219te c\u00e2rti\u021be r\u0103t\u0103cite, ne temem tare de lumin\u0103.<\/p>\n

Am stat \u00een case mai mult c\u0103 niciodat\u0103, am vorbit cu prietenii doar la telefon, pr\u0103p\u0103stios, apocaliptic, frustra\u021bi de situa\u021bie, mai nimic vesel, entuziasmant, cu speran\u021be de viitor fain.<\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd am ie\u0219it a fost pentru scurte perioade, cu fe\u021bele acoperite, cu dezinfectan\u021bi \u00een buzunare, suspicio\u0219i \u0219i sup\u0103r\u0103cio\u0219i, gata s\u0103-l p\u00e2r\u00e2m pe \u0103l de nu face exact c\u0103 noi.<\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd amintesc de sentimentul de frustrare, m\u0103 refer, evident, la cei care au \u0219tiut \u0219i alt\u0103 realitate, care au prins odinioar\u0103 din plin libertatea de a petrece vacan\u021be la bunici, la \u021bar\u0103, zburd\u00e2nd \u00een picioarele goale, de a bea ap\u0103 de la f\u00e2nt\u00e2na din sat, de a juca toate jocurile p\u0103m\u00e2ntului cu copiii de pe uli\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n

Murdari peste poate, sear\u0103 sp\u0103larea se f\u0103cea la lighean, cu ap\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103lzit\u0103 pe sob\u0103. Se includ \u00een acest cerc de cunosc\u0103tori \u0219i cei care au idee ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 ie\u0219irile cu familia, prietenii la munte, la mare, pe coclauri, la p\u0103dure, chiar \u0219i \u00een \u00een fa\u021ba blocului, uita\u021bi cu orele \u00een aer liber, ne\u0219tiind ce \u00eensemn\u0103 cas\u0103 dec\u00e2t pentru a te sp\u0103la, dormi, lucra mici repara\u021bii, ac\u021biuni casnice, citit \u0219i \u00eendatoriri de \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n

Ceilal\u021bi, \u0103i mai recen\u021bi, nu mai au de unde \u0219ti am\u0103nunte, par s\u0103 prefere ad\u0103postul acesta impus, s-au obi\u0219nuit cu el, se simt prost dac\u0103 dau masca jos, au anxiet\u0103\u021bi dac\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 ias\u0103 din culcu\u0219.<\/p>\n

Ne miram condescendent c\u00e2nd vedeam filmul cu Nicholas Cage care dezinfecta clan\u021bele u\u0219ilor, bolnav cu acte fiind, avea frici, fobii, se \u00eensp\u0103im\u00e2nta doar la g\u00e2ndul de a ie\u0219i \u00een lume. Ast\u0103zi e tot mai mult realitate. \u0218i un tip ca el este etalonul. Sigur c\u0103 nu e toat\u0103 lumea luat\u0103, dar v\u0103d tot mai des semne.<\/p>\n

Ast\u0103zi un prieten cu care pl\u0103nuisem s\u0103 ie\u0219im la Sinaia \u00een weekend zice:<\/p>\n

– N-are sens s\u0103 plec\u0103m, se anun\u021b\u0103 frig, plou\u0103, e ur\u00e2t.<\/p>\n

– Ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 ur\u00e2t, \u00eei zic, c\u00e2 e totu\u0219i abia \u00eenceput de martie, cum ai vrea s\u0103 fie?! Suedezii scot copiii zilnic \u00een aer, fie ploaie, fie v\u00e2nt, bunicii mei nu l\u0103sau glia \u0219i animalele oric\u00e2t de n\u0103praznic era criv\u0103\u021bul.<\/p>\n

– Da, zice, dar noi nu suntem suedezi \u0219i nici pe vremea bunicilor.<\/p>\n

Mi-a \u00eenchis gura. Ne-am adecvat. Ne adapt\u0103m. Ne obi\u0219nuim u\u0219or, u\u0219or, f\u0103r\u0103 teatru, f\u0103r\u0103 concerte, f\u0103r\u0103 socializare nemijlocit\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lniri \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103toare, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 ne mi\u0219c\u0103m, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 ne atingem, ba chiar nu ne e greu deloc, ba chiar nu pricepem de ce f\u0103ceam \u00eenainte tot acel dans cu pup\u0103turi \u0219i b\u0103t\u0103i pe spate, \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219\u0103ri \u0219i str\u00eengeri de m\u00een\u0103.<\/p>\n

Adineauri am am\u00e2nat o \u00eent\u00e2lnire planificat\u0103 \u0219i r\u0103splanificat\u0103, reprogramat\u0103 de n-\u0219pe ori, pe motiv c\u0103 s-a \u00eenchis restaurantul unde trebuia s\u0103 ne vedem, \u0219i ce crezi, parc\u0103 am sim\u021bit pe undeva o u\u0219urare. De care m-am \u00eengrijorat. A r\u0103mas c\u0103 vorbim, dac\u0103 e. \u0218i acest Vorbim, dac\u0103 e, e tot mai prezent, e la tot pasul, de unde era un fel de a spune, o glum\u0103, o dantelu\u021b\u0103 de limbaj, acum e o lege a evazivului.<\/p>\n

Dac\u0103 e ce? Dac\u0103 ne permite soarta? Dac\u0103 e scris \u00een stele? Dac\u0103 budi\u0219tii descifreaz\u0103 \u00eent\u00eelnirea cu pricina \u00een karma noastr\u0103? Dac\u0103 e s\u00e2mb\u0103t\u0103? Dac\u0103 e posibil\u0103 re\u00eencarnarea?<\/p>\n

R\u0103m\u00e2ne \u00een obscuritate. Dac\u0103 e circumstan\u021ba potrivit\u0103. Dac\u0103 m-oi face tu s\u0103 ies c\u00e2nd eu nu vreau, dar tu insi\u0219ti \u0219i-atunci s\u0103 vedem cine-i mai tare, dac\u0103 e s\u0103 m\u0103 prinzi, m\u0103 pun eu la v-a\u021bi ascunselea, dar n-o s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u0103se\u0219ti niciodat\u0103 hahaha, gata, am zis Stop.<\/p>\n

Dac\u0103 e.<\/p>\n

De fapt mergem spre \u201enimeni nu mai vrea s\u0103 interac\u021bioneze cu nimeni\u201d. De fric\u0103, de aten\u021bion\u0103ri oficiale, de lehamite, de a\u0219teptarea unei minuni, de comoditate, de merge \u0219i-a\u0219a, de treci codrii de aram\u0103. Au prins oamenii un ritm al explor\u0103rii computerului-sufrageriei-dormitorului-frigiderului-balconului-\u0219i-iar-computerului, de nu mai au nevoie de nimic. Nici de ie\u0219it la magazin nu mai e cazul, ies curierii \u0219i-\u021bi aduc totul la nas. Evi\u021bi at\u00e2ta stres.<\/p>\n

Tu mai bine stai \u00een cas\u0103 \u0219i\u2026hm\u2026\u0219i ce? Explorezi internetul. Te ui\u021bi la televizor la cancanuri. Te ui\u021bi la \u0219tirile alarmiste, \u00een bucl\u0103. Te ui\u021bi la Netflix. \u0218tii tot ce mi\u0219c\u0103 \u0219i a mi\u0219cat sub bagheta unui regizor. Cur\u0103\u021benie. Copii. Lec\u021bii online. Exasperante. Nu e treaba ta, dar zic \u0103\u0219tia c\u0103 ar fi cazul s\u0103 fie. Te enervezi. Covorul are ni\u0219te franjuri deplasa\u021bi fa\u021b\u0103 de cum era diminea\u021b\u0103. Ce s\u0103 mai g\u0103tim? Of, s\u0103 ie\u0219im cu c\u00e2inele. Ia pune-i pampers, nu ies nici s\u0103 m\u0103 pici cu cear\u0103 pe vremea asta, nici c\u00e2inele s\u0103 nu-l dai afar\u0103 zice-o vorb\u0103 din b\u0103tr\u00eeni, bun\u0103 vorb\u0103.<\/p>\n

St\u0103m \u00een grupul de pe Facebook, uite ce funny e tipa aia cum a g\u0103sit solu\u021bii de distrus moliile din cas\u0103, dar \u0219i cel care ofer\u0103 servicii de cur\u0103\u021benie cu aspirator profesional, hm, ni\u0219te solu\u021bii de gr\u0103din\u0103rit nu ar strica \u0219i ia hai s\u0103 vedem cine \u0219tie s\u0103 fac\u0103 t\u0103ie\u021bei de cas\u0103 cu adev\u0103rat, o, ce m-am emo\u021bionat la aceast\u0103 poveste de via\u021b\u0103, ia, cu ce s-a mai g\u0103tit influens\u0103ri\u021ba asta de m\u0103 enerveaz\u0103, dar tot m\u0103 uit la ea..<\/p>\n

Rumeg\u0103m \u0219i credem c\u0103 rezolv\u0103m totul \u00eentre 4 pere\u021bi. Cu iluzia c\u0103 las\u0103, c\u0103 ie\u0219im noi la un moment dat, dac\u0103 e. Acest dac\u0103 e.<\/p>\n

Iar c\u00e2nd ie\u0219im, c\u0103 na, nu avem \u00eencotro, mai trebuie s\u0103 \u0219i umbl\u0103m, suntem de-o r\u0103utate fantastic\u0103. Ne lupt\u0103m pentru nimicuri, \u00eel ar\u0103t\u0103m pe cel\u0103lalt cu degetul, \u00eel p\u00e2ndim, vezi Doamne nu are masca pus\u0103 corect, cine are fa\u021ba goal\u0103 de masc\u0103 e un paria. Ne d\u0103 tuturor bubaaaa, haide\u021bi s\u0103-l lin\u0219\u0103m.<\/p>\n

Un prieten a fost oprit \u0219i amendat de jandarmi c\u0103 nu a pus botni\u021b\u0103 c\u00eeinelui. I-o scosese chiar la intrarea \u00een bloc. L-au urm\u0103rit special s\u0103-l legitimeze, s\u0103-l umileasc\u0103. Ce avertisment, nici un avertisment. Direct, a\u0219a, i-au spus jandarmii printre din\u021bi, pentru c\u0103 a\u0219a vrem noi. Un om care e extraordinar de corect, pl\u0103te\u0219te d\u0103rile, str\u00eenge gunoiul, are ini\u021biative la blocul lui, a f\u0103cut din scara lui expozi\u021bie, muzeu, vin oamenii \u0219i se uit\u0103 \u0219i se minuneaz\u0103 c\u00eet de bine poate ar\u0103ta o scar\u0103 de bloc cum au \u0219i ei, este bruftuluit \u0219i umilit \u0219i intimidat \u0219i amenin\u021bat.<\/p>\n

Ceilal\u021bi, cei agresivi, nu-s atin\u0219i nici cu o pan\u0103, de\u0219i \u00een urma lor e pr\u0103p\u0103d. Strig\u0103m, url\u0103m, ne congestion\u0103m la fa\u021b\u0103. Orice gest neconform, orice privire chiar este pericol de moarte. Ne e o fric\u0103 excesiv\u0103 de moarte. Ne-am face frate cu orice nemernic dac\u0103 ne las\u0103 \u00een via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n

Balada Miori\u021ba ne urm\u0103re\u0219te implacabil, doar c\u0103 noi suntem ciob\u0103na\u0219ii agresivi. Oamenii ar fi \u00een stare s\u0103 se \u0219i omoare pentru nimicurile alea.<\/p>\n

– Am fost \u00eenaintea ta la coad\u0103.<\/p>\n

– Ba eu am fost. E martor domnul.<\/p>\n

– A\u021bi zis domnul la mi\u0219to?<\/p>\n

– Nu, pe doamna o aveam \u00een colimator.<\/p>\n

– M\u0103 face\u021bi mincinos, prost? Cum v\u0103 permite\u021bi? Cine te crezi?<\/p>\n

– Nesim\u021bitule!<\/p>\n

– Nesim\u021bito!<\/p>\n

Din ochi \u021b\u00e2\u0219nesc fulgere.<\/p>\n

Dac\u0103 alea ar ucide, ar c\u0103dea mul\u021bi rom\u00e2ni nervo\u0219i care a\u0219teptau ca via\u021ba s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2mple.<\/p>\n

Poate de fapt chiar cad, dar mai lent, de obid\u0103 acumulat\u0103 \u00een suflet, de neputin\u021ba de a vedea frumosul, credin\u021ba din str\u0103buni, de lipsa unui sfat de b\u0103tr\u00e2n \u0219i de imposibilitatea de a relua firul rupt al leg\u0103turii ancestrale cu natura, singurul care ne-ar reface \u0219i da sete de via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n

M\u0103cina\u021bi de lupte mici, minuscule, insignifiante, ne pierdem darul cel mare, via\u021ba, culmea, tr\u0103ind-o.<\/p>\n

\u0218i cel mai trist mi se pare azi s\u0103 fii copil, s\u0103 fii suspendat \u00eentr-o mare de \u201eNu ai voie\u201d, de \u201eE\u0219ti minunea mea dar stai \u00een cas\u0103 s\u0103-\u021bi fac fotografii, ne \u0219i film\u0103m, haha ce frumos e\u0219ti, muah muah\u201d, eu te conduc \u0219i colo \u0219i dincolo, dar acum nu am timp c\u0103 lucrez de-acas\u0103 \u0219i am deadline. Ia telefonul.<\/p>\n

\u0218i copiii iau telefonul \u0219i \u00eei recuper\u0103m noi, dac\u0103 e.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

N-o s\u0103 mai fie la fel. Tare mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 m\u0103 contrazic\u0103 cineva \u00eentr-o zi, ar\u0103t\u00eendu-mi cum totul s-a \u00eentors la normal. Dar omenirea pare s-o fi luat \u00eentr-o direc\u021bie clar\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 posibilitatea de a pune fr\u00een\u0103. Lumea pare s\u0103 fi ales ascunzi\u0219ul. C\u0103 ni\u0219te c\u00e2rti\u021be r\u0103t\u0103cite, ne temem tare de lumin\u0103. Am stat \u00een […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9,"featured_media":107286,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"Gianina Corondan: \r\n\u201eN-o s\u0103 mai fie la fel. Tare mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 m\u0103 contrazic\u0103 cineva \u00eentr-o zi, ar\u0103t\u00eendu-mi cum totul s-a \u00eentors la normal. Dar omenirea pare s-o fi luat \u00eentr-o direc\u021bie clar\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 posibilitatea de a pune fr\u00een\u0103\u201d.","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[152],"tags":[5381],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/people-walk-mask-crowd-public-5828891.jpg","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s9PoWe-vorbim","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/107285"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/9"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=107285"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/107285\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/107286"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=107285"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=107285"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/paginiromanesti.ca\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=107285"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}