Ast\u0103zi e ziua ta. Nu prea \u0219tiu ce cadou s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi fac. Ce \u021bi-ai dori s\u0103 prime\u0219ti de la mine?<\/p>\n
Ne-am desp\u0103r\u021bit oficial de mai mult de 16 ani. Ce-i drept, ne-am mai rev\u0103zut de atunci, aproape \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103tor.
\nM\u0103 \u00eentreb ce mai avem oare \u00een comun, ce ne mai leag\u0103 dup\u0103 at\u00e2ta timp? De ce \u00eemi dau \u00eenc\u0103 lacrimile c\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la tine? Doar st\u0103m de vorb\u0103 destul de rar.<\/p>\n
S\u0103 fie oare copil\u0103ria ? M-ai n\u0103scut \u00een mijlocul unui an nebun, al prim\u0103verii de la Praga. \u0218i m-ai crescut \u00eentr-un regim tiranic. Mi-ai dat de \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 nu era vina ta, c\u0103 ai fost obligat\u0103. C\u0103 aveai un st\u0103p\u00e2n r\u0103u, care te b\u0103tea \u0219i nu te l\u0103sa liber\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ce-i drept, ai \u00eencercat s\u0103 \u00eemi oferi o copil\u0103rie fericit\u0103, cu vacan\u021be de var\u0103 la \u021bar\u0103, la bunici, cu drumuri de munte, cu fotbal jucat pe maidanele pr\u0103fuite, printre Daciile parcate str\u00e2mb. Cu iernile oamenilor de z\u0103pada. Cu dou\u0103\u00a0ore de program la televizor pe zi. Cu banane \u0219i portocale aduse de un oarecare Mo\u0219 Geril\u0103. Ai f\u0103cut \u0219i tu ce ai putut.<\/p>\n
Apoi m-ai \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 merg pe jos la \u0219coala din cartier \u0219i s\u0103 port cheia la g\u00e2t. Nici vorba de autobuz \u0219colar! Am dus acolo sticle \u0219i borcane, maculatur\u0103, am f\u0103cut munc\u0103 patriotic\u0103 \u2013 pentru c\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b\u0103m\u00e2ntul era gratuit. Mi-ai trimis profesori pedan\u021bi, care cereau caiete liniate, s\u0103 scriem caligrafic \u0219i ne b\u0103teau la palm\u0103 cu linia. M-ai \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 m\u0103 descurc, s\u0103 copiez dup\u0103 al\u021bii \u0219i m\u0103 prefac c\u0103 \u00eemi place sistemul. Mi-ai zis c\u0103 a\u0219a ai supravie\u021buit \u0219i tu.<\/p>\n
Am citit c\u0103r\u021bile pe care ni le cerea \u0219coala. \u0218tii, textele care te l\u0103udau c\u0103 e\u0219ti cea mai frumoas\u0103 \u0219i bun\u0103 \u00een lume. Le-am crezut, s\u0103 \u0219tii, m\u0103car c\u0103 nu mai v\u0103zusem pe nimeni altcineva afar\u0103 de tine.<\/p>\n
Mi-ai oferit o tinere\u021be ciudat\u0103. Mi-ai promis un viitor luminos, o carier\u0103 \u0219i o familie, o via\u021b\u0103 civilizat\u0103, dar st\u0103team 10 ore la coad\u0103 la br\u00e2nz\u0103 \u0219i dou\u0103\u00a0zile la carne, iar serile citeam la lum\u00e2nare, ca Eminescu. O dat\u0103 pe an plecam la mare cu trenul, urc\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 pe geam. Acolo, nisipul era plin de scoici, discotecile \u00eenchideau \u00eenainte de 10, iar chelnerii erau cei mai \u00eenst\u0103ri\u021bi. \u0218i am crezut c\u0103 a\u0219a e normal.<\/p>\n
M-ai educat cum ai \u0219tiut tu mai bine. M\u0103 puneai s\u0103 fac sute de probleme din culegere \u0219i s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b poezii pe dinafar\u0103, plus capitalele tuturor \u021b\u0103rilor din lume. Mi-ai zis c\u0103 doar cei cu carte ajung departe. Acum, fiind departe, \u00eemi dau seama c\u0103 ai avut dreptate. Dar nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 asta ai vrut s\u0103 spui. M-ai trimis \u0219i \u00een armat\u0103, spun\u00e2ndu-mi c\u0103 a\u0219a m\u0103 maturizez. Dar acolo, \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103, am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat doar cum s\u0103 p\u0103c\u0103lesc absurdul.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd ai sc\u0103pat de st\u0103p\u00e2nul care te abuza, am sperat c\u0103 o s\u0103 fie mai bine \u0219i pentru mine. Dar tu ai \u00eenceput s\u0103 te por\u021bi tot mai ur\u00e2t. Ai trimis mineri s\u0103 ne bat\u0103, la Universitate. Te-ai l\u0103sat condus\u0103 de derbedei, de ho\u021bi, de neciopli\u021bi. M\u0103 puneai s\u0103 dau spag\u0103, s\u0103 mint, s\u0103 fur. Sau s\u0103 m\u0103 las min\u021bit, furat, p\u0103c\u0103lit. M-ai convins c\u0103 nu m\u0103 mai iube\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
Am decis s\u0103 te p\u0103r\u0103sesc. Mi-am f\u0103cut bagajele, \u00een care am pus, ca prostul, \u0219i amintiri de la tine \u2013 c\u00e2teva poze \u0219i ni\u0219te c\u0103r\u021bi. Am fugit \u00een lume, ca fiul risipitor. Nu m-am mai uitat \u00eenapoi. Nici nu cred c\u0103 ai pl\u00e2ns dup\u0103 mine. \u0218i am v\u0103zut c\u0103 nu erai cea mai frumoas\u0103 din lume, cum te l\u0103udai.<\/p>\n
La \u00eenceput nu \u021bi-am sim\u021bit lipsa. Am zis c\u0103, \u00een fine, am sc\u0103pat de tine \u0219i de copiii t\u0103i cei r\u0103i. Dar apoi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi simt lipsa. Ba chiar s\u0103 te \u00een\u021beleg. Pentru c\u0103 ai suferit \u0219i tu mult \u00een trecut, ai vrut s\u0103 ne dai nou\u0103, copiilor t\u0103i, o lec\u021bie. Ne-ai f\u0103cut s\u0103 fim independen\u021bi de tine, s\u0103 fim capabili s\u0103 ne descurc\u0103m \u00eentr-o lume rea. Educa\u021bia aia proast\u0103 pe care ne-ai dat-o ne-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 fim creativi \u00een situa\u021bii imposibil de prev\u0103zut. Cu ce am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat de la tine, am reu\u0219it s\u0103 supravie\u021buim printre str\u0103ini. A\u0219a cum ai reu\u0219it tu s\u0103 supravie\u021buie\u0219ti printre secole.<\/p>\n
Din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd \u00eemi aduceam aminte de Carpa\u021bi, de crucea de la Caraiman, de serile pe faleza de la Costine\u0219ti. Urm\u0103ream ve\u0219ti despre tine pe internet. Am constat cu surpirndere c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eemi pas\u0103 de tine. Dar nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 tu te g\u00e2ndeai ce fac copiii t\u0103i risipi\u021bi printre str\u0103ini.<\/p>\n
M\u0103 surprinde c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 \u021bi-ai p\u0103strat farmecul, umorul t\u0103u unic, chiar dac\u0103 uneori e involuntar \u0219i politic incorect. C\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 po\u021bi face glume cu blonde, cu sex, sau cu biserici. Aici unde stau, nu se poate \u0219i uneori \u00eemi e tare dor s\u0103 pot r\u00e2de ca \u00eentr-un c\u0103min studen\u021besc.<\/p>\n
Alteori pl\u00e2ng pentru necazurile tale \u0219i mi se pare c\u0103 \u021bie nu prea \u00ee\u021bi pas\u0103 \u2013 nici de fiii t\u0103i care mor de foame, sau ar\u0219i \u00een discoteci, sau batjocori\u021bi de str\u0103ini la ei acas\u0103, nici de cei pleca\u021bi \u00een lume. Dar cred c\u0103 suferi \u00een t\u0103cere, nu vrei s\u0103 ar\u0103\u021bi, s\u0103 nu r\u00e2d\u0103 lumea de tine c\u0103 e\u0219ti sentimental\u0103.<\/p>\n
Dar azi, de ziua ta, m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la tine \u0219i, a\u0219a imperfect\u0103 cum e\u0219ti, \u00ee\u021bi doresc tot binele din lume. \u0218i \u0219tiu c\u0103 vei fi mereu refugiul meu de rezerv\u0103, dac\u0103 vreodat\u0103 m\u0103 voi s\u0103tura de stat printre str\u0103ini. \u00cen inima mea, sper ca \u00eentr-o zi s\u0103 ne putem \u00eemp\u0103ca \u0219i, de ce nu, s\u0103 fim iar\u0103\u0219i \u00eempreun\u0103. Ce cadou mai frumos de at\u00e2t a\u0219 putea s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi fac?<\/p>\n
La mul\u021bi ani, Rom\u00e2nie!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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